Sometimes I feel jealous. And I know jealousy is wrong. I always feel dirty when I feel jealous. And that is not a good feeling.
And my jealousy is mostly unfounded as nobody has the perfect life. Everybody has little problems that nobody knows about.
I was taught that good girls aren’t jealous. Good girls are perfectly content with what they have. But this has been a thing with me since I was young. Do other people feel jealous? Or am I the only one.
I tell myself that money would change all of my jealousy and I would be content. But I know I probably wouldn’t. Because then I would be jealous of somebody else’s body. Somebody else’s job. Somebody else’s…dog? Probably. Toby is pretty dumb :)
But jealousy is something that I stamp down on a day to day basis. I have a wonderful, exemplary, dedicated husband and a wonderful family. And a kickass computer. I tell myself that’s amazing. But sometimes jealousy continues to eat away. It would be awesome to get rid of it.